wahlao...... anti climax. i just found out that the apple ipod 30gb (video) doesnt come with the charger blahblah usb blahblah. apparently when you buy it for only $548.. (i think?) its only the ipod and the earphones...... NO USB NO NOTHING HOW TO CHARGE!!!! NEED TO SPEND MORE MONEY!!!!! WAHLAO!!!!

anyway still deciding what i should ask my sis/mom to get me for my birthday. aghh. got into a mini quarrel with my sis over the phone just now.

d: i think i want the tiffany square ring.
s: girl, tiffany is just silver. and its 290. why dont you just go to moshimoshi and get a ring there.. its silver too.. you get it yourself lah very cheap. then we get you your uzap or you choose something else.
d: i dont want a moshimoshi ring.. i want the tiffany square ring.
s: daph, i told u already right? there is no point wasting money on silver. ive been there done that.. its really not worth it.
d: i know. but i want to go there and do it and say been there done that.. i want the square ring..
s: up to you lah.. tell you, you dont want to listen..

see...... i hate the been there done that...... of cos i know tiffany is just silver. duh you think 290 can buy you gold meh? but the ring very nice what. last time she also can buy................... why i cannot buy?????!!!! and they were the ones who called me and asked me to decide on my 18+1th present.... so let me decide lah!! grrrrrrr.

m1 just asked me whether i want to go back and work on weekends... crazy. if i go back, i will have NOOOOO life at all. imagine work from monday to sunday...... SIAO AH......... even though its just opposite my place.... but nooooooo.

next week is gonna be a busybusybusy week. kinda hoping that i will fall sick..... hahaha. kai's turning 3!! having dinner at suntec with my family minus my dad... and theres some company party at quepasa on wednesday (where got company party on weekday one??? crazy..).. and then its zoukout on saturday.... are you going to zoukout?? please say you are!!

anyway bukitpanjang is so cool now. oh so cool oh so cool oh so cool. the "revamped" plaza has........... cafe cartel, starbucks (FINALLY A PLACE OTHER THAN MACS TO HAVE "COFFEEEEE"), delifrance, blahblahblah alot of others lah. so "excitement" hor? and the new NTUC is sooooo big and messsssyyyyyy and so wannabe upmarket. HAHAHA..

greatttt! so do i have this "come, i love giving money to china man" look or what? i was INNOCENTLY waiting for my sister to pick me up at laupasat after work today. so armed with all the barangbarangs i had under my table and my huge sling bag, i was minding my own business listening to darkbeat on my mp3 and silently cursing at the buses that attempt to park near me (which will mean theres no space for me to get into the car)............................

this china guy comes up to me and attempted to borrow money from me.

*black polo tee. tucked into black shoes. black clutch bag. black leather shoes.

c: xiao jie ni shi sing jia po ren ma?
(removes my earphones.. giving a damn irritated look.)
d: ah.
c: wo shi chong zong guo lai de. shi geng wo de peng you men lai. bu guo ta men qu le taiwan. wo na shi zai ji chang you wen ti.. shuo yi mei gen ta men qu.. ke yi jie wo yi xie qian buy ji piao ma?
d: huh??
c: ke yi jie wo ba bai kuai ($800).. wo hui qu zong guo hui ji qian lai huan ni.
d: dui bu qi wo mei you qian.

ok thats not everything that he said. there were more crap but i really couldnt be bothered to listen. number one, if you're selling tissue paper.. like 3 packs for a dollar, i really dont mind giving you a dollar to "aid" you and to get some peace. but if you're like some able men who isnt dressed in crappp dirty old torn clothes... and asking me for money.. (not that even if he was dressed in dirty torn clothes i would oblige. not the issue) HELLOOOO go work lah. stop cheating young singaporeans for money okay. no one (i hope) will be stupid enough to pass u 800 bucks and believe that it will actually come back to us ... in what? ren min bi ah???????? i mean its worst than begging. asking a total stranger for such a large amount of money.

so when i got into the car..

d: hi jie, hi elvin korkor.
s: hi girl..
e: hi daph..
d: guess what happened?? some crazy china man thought i would be generous enough to give him $800 to buy a plane ticket back home. and promised to post me the money when he's back there.. in rupiah i think.
s: hahahahha. con man lah daph. why didnt you say you're a lesbian?
e: what? still got such people? please dont tell me u wanted to loan him the $.
d: no im not stupid elvin korkor. and jie, he asked me for money...... not sex.....

sometimes i think my sis can be quite.. out of point. worst than me! hahahha.

okay, end of story. bottomline, dont talk to strangers. dont even think about lending money to strangers. siao ah!!! i mean if its like an old lady or sth who cant even walk without a stick... i really wouldnt mind. but you're some able guy.... tsk tsk. con man!!!! i am not that stupid ok. i still dont know why he bothered to ask me. do i actually have the "look" that i will believe his stupid story and give him 800 bucks? HELLO YOU KNOW 800 BUCKS CAN BUY ME 2 OF THE LOVELY TIFFANY SQUARE RING.... AND STILL GOT CHANGE FOR AN OSIM.UZAP...................

very gooooood.

emails make me happppppy!!!! :) woot woot woot. honkytong

hello everyone, please keep the 30th december free for mE!

lets go party!!! and celebrate my 18(+1)th birthday!!!! OKIE??? dinner before that most probably. i dont care if you dont like each other. just come for mE please!

you know whats the latest fashion item to own?

A DOG!!!!!

no i dont mean you being a bitch. i mean like a real woof woof dog.. (not the nitendo touch screen lame pet game)

(almost) everyone around me has a dog!! im serious.

woof woof. i want a dog too. always wanted one since i was young. so that ive got something to put my feet on when im seated on the chair and blahblah (kidding) but noooo. my mom hates it. as in she doesnt hate dogs. she just hates the idea of a pet in the house. tash wants a dog too. she said she wants a cute pretty one. but my sister told her that only if they have a garden, then a dog will be allowed.. sigh. poor tash. poor daph. no dog. sigh. :(

woof woof woof.

i am a groupie.

woot woot woot.

lovely, i totally dig it when they play wannabe in the morning on class95. somehow its like a sign that its gonna be a goooood day.

been going out too much. spending too much. aghhh. and the irony, i didnt even club this week.. cab fares are evil i swear!! cabs are evil!!!! food is evil!!!

i am so so so broke i think i realllly have to spend the whole of next week eating at home. good also, can spend time with the family. or rather whats left of it. ha ha.

just received my bank statement the other day. its quite scary to see the 4 digits turn to like 2 digits in less than a month. i think its time i look into the way i spend my money and..... learn to save for my moto pink rzar. hahahaa. its so cute. the functions of the v3 sucks though. but its a pink phone!!!

i am so broke.
i am so broke.
i am so broke.

i must stop shopping. below my table at work, i have three different bags of stuff that i bought but dont dare to bring home...

i want to buy the tiffany square ring.............
i want to buy the moto razr pink v3............

i should just stop wanting and start saving money huh.

so theres the sale on thursday. BUT I CANNOT GO! WHY? COS I AM BROKE!!! VERY GOOOD!!:( :( :( so bitter about it.

last night as i was sitting outside coldstorage with denise at 6am, we were talking about the christmas spirit in the air. and i said.. "i can feel the xmas spirit in the air... but im not excited about it. nothing to look forward to.." im so cynical and bitter its scary. for like the past 18 years, ive always loved xmas because everyone loves everyone and everyone is friendly, kind, gay and lovely creatures during that season! and also not to forget my birthday is 6 days after xmas. which means more love, more presents and more love!

but as you age...... you tend to kinda have expections for "special" days (maybe its just me) .. and in the end you get upset.. WHY LIKE THAT?? so very easy lor.. dont care about it.. just screw it and say... UP TO YOU LAH!! very simple..

so i am not doing anything "special" this year for xmas. or my birthday. there might not even be a family bbq even. :( its been a yearly thingy since 2001..... but this year no mention of it yet....... so... UP TO THEM LAH!

up to you lah!!

whatever you say.

!@$$^$@^$^@^%$%^@^%$!^#$^%!$#!^%

i spent like 6 hours at hougang painting and doing art stuff. quite fun cos its been ages since i last touched a paint brush. haha.

i caught pride and prejudice. keira knightley is soooo gorgeous!

went to holland, sat around and talked till 7am... not bad not bad...

now im still comtemplating whether im going to bed, or should i go for service and be veryyy sleepy.

last friday.

d: he's quite cute ah.. but sth wrong about the outfit.
j: i think its the top..
d: no i think its the waistcoat.
c: eh his suit top to toe from armani leh.
j: can tell its ex lah.
d: but still sth wrong.. I KNOW!! ITS THE SHOES!! ITS THE PATENT LEATHER SHOES!!
c: ohhh yah... but must be expensive one leh. hes a shareholder of _____.
j: ohhh yes the shoes!! eeee!
d: dont see the shoes, very nice. with the shoes abit salah.

today.

as i was walking outside louisvuitton....... guess what did i see on display???? THAT UGLY PAIR OF SHOES!!!!!!!!!!!! gosh.....

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end of story

comon, be nice.... i think i look better as a minah than i do normally... right????? hahaha.

i would say we're a warped generation. and a very screwed one indeed. haha. perhaps its just me. im re-reading tipping the velvet again because its such a good book. i think i can read it over and over again. please.... go read it. you have to!!!

now if only anyone is nice enough to get me that dvd for my birthday................................... hahahhaa.

whether or not you're gay.. you have to read this book!

TIPPING THE VELVET by SARAH WATERS

it is one of the best books ive read so far. and it made me tear! once i started on it last night, i couldnt put it down. and ive just completed it like ten minutes ago! :) it is basically about nan king, this queer "tom" girl who was living in england in the 1880s.. and her queer journey as she discovers love. or rather perhaps at some point of time, lust.

i borrowed it from the library. but im so gonna buy the book now!! anyway.. i got a shock when i collected it from the library (yes, national library can make reservations one you know.. very cheap...) and saw that it was under english-gay. hahaha. i mean i knew that it was a book about the queer people. but i didnt expect the national library to classfy such books under english-gay.... hmmm.

apparently a movie/show was made about this movie. and its selling for only S$25 on yahoo auctions...... this is btw how the cover of the dvd looks like. the book cover is very different. its errr brown background, and a pair of pink shoes in the middle. you must must must read it!



and i thought i had my queer desires cribbed and chilled and chastened.....

meeting up with old friends are always fun cos even though you havent met in ages...... theres always so much to catch up on and all. :) really nice feeling.

so we were at coffeeclub.... and then we heard this loud bang... there was this motorcyclist that got into an accident at the junction..... damn scary. sigh. whoever you are, i pray that you're ok and that your family is ok.. and i pray that you will ride safely in future.....

for those of you who drive or ride (a vehicle)......... please please pleaseeeee i beg you..... be careful. not only for yourself but for the lifes of other people around you and all. dont think at night can speed like siao..... dont think cutting lanes are fun..... please...... be careful.

on another hand, for the past 2 mornings........ ive been seeing people cut the queue at the bus interchange early in the morning. i know i shouldnt be so bitter in the morning....... but you see.... i take bus number 700 to work every morning. and the queue is realllllly long. its like if you're in the queue, at least 1 bus will pass before its your turn. get it? so the queue can actually stretch from one end of the interchange to another cos its the only bus that goes thru town, all the way to raffles place, shenton way blahblah.

so yesterday morning, i was veryyy sleepy and grouchy while standing in line cos the bus was taking forever and ive been waiting for like 15 minutes and the usual bus that comes at 7.46 hasnt arrived and it was already 7.48........... and can you imagine how long the queue was? so there was this girl (stockings, open toe black heels... some striped top and a striped skirt... prada bag that looks quite fake cos the zip like dun have the prada word but some ugly normal YKK zip. quite sala but not the point...) who saw her friend who happened to be standing behind me... so they talked... and then conveniently......... the girl who just happened to walk past...... actually climed under the railings and got into the queue.... STILL DARE TO "EXCUSE ME" cos i pretended not to see her. i ask you... angry or not? not that its my problem...... but i mean hello there are at least 40 people standing in the bloody queue and here you are...... with that YKK prada zip bag.... cutting the queue and still dare to say excuse me to me????? i so wanted to turn around and say.. "hello you cannot see the queue is righttt at the end? not here?" but i didnt.... cos i dont want to be so bitter in the morning................. so all i did was TSKKK super loudly and rolled my eyes at her when she "excuse me" to me.... very daring.......

so today it happened again........ but this time infront of me................ but different girl............. this time its a guy................. cutting the queue to apparently stand with his female aunty friend............... very daring............................................. but i was too busy reading my book to want to say anything to him.. but when he turned around i did stare at him and did the ah lian thing. DIAOOOOOOO him. HAHAHAHHAHA. at least he had the decency to say sorry. not like that prada ykk girl.

if it is happening again tomorrow morning..... im so gonna say something. i mean if everyone does this then dont queue lah. lets all make buddies in the queue and take turns to cut queue! so fun!

sometimes i am so bitter i scare myself.

I AM FREEEEEEZING! today at work, i wore a tank top, my cardigan that was in my bag.. my jacket thats left in the office... AND a shawl...... and i was still feeling cold!! the aircon system at the oglivy building is insane... on rainy days... the temp will be damnnn low. and on sunny days, the temp of the aircon will be brought up.. tell me... got sense or not? or maybe its just me?

so i went to work today and didnt get to use my new and very cute umbrella cos it only started pouring once i stepped into the office. no kidding. so it rained the entire day and i was toooo lazy to step outta the office so i got everyoneeee to order macs for lunch cos the last time i ordered, it was free delivery with a min purchase of $20..... and after gathering allll the orders, i realised that now... macs has NO min order at all.. no matter how much you're ordering.. you have to pay the $2 delivery charge thingy. so...... now i know. HAHAHA. in future if i am feeling hungry&lazy at 3am and i really want to eat nuggets... i can just dial 67773777 and ask them to deliver the nuggets straight to my door for only $5.30!! ($3.30 for the nuggets and $2 for the delivery).... or worst still.... feel like eating an apple pie? BRING IT TO ME!!! for only $3!!!!!!!! im lovin it! HAHAHAHA. pun totally not intended.

went to the library after work to borrow books.. haha. i think i am superficial to the extend that i choose books that i want to borrow by their cover. comon, i know you do that too. so i am not the only one!

anyway was supposed to go to JB this weekend...... BUT NO..

d: mommy, im going to jb this sat with my friends. got guys. dont worry. very safe. will use my old phone. not bring my wallet. not bring anything that looks expensive. will wear ugly clothes.
m: NO...
d: i dont care, im going to jb this sat.
m: you go lor, your passport with me.

(*@&$(@*%(*@&%(*@&(%&(@&*#^!&#%&!% aghhhh. im turning 19 this year mommy.... not 9.... agh..... i so wanted to go to JB and buy dvds...... dammit.

i woke up today with this "up to you lah!" feeling. sometimes thats the way to go about things i guess. just go like.. "up to you lah!!" why ALLOW the actions of others to affect you right? as in you only live once so fuck it lah..

lets see how long this feeling can last. cos sometimes i guess the action of others will really affect you because everyone has expectations. but the solution to it all is... the good ol... "up to you lah!"

i dont think i am the only paranoid one around who will never get up before her alarm goes off because it just feels wrong? as in you know how you have this body clock thingy? so sometimes instead if getting up at 0651 when my alarm goes off, i will be up say about 0649. but i will refuse to get up until my alarm goes off because it just feels wrong.

rocking around the christmas tree.

i have funny siblings. so i emailed my sis and bro some pictures and told them how funny our mom is cos she thought that im together with my cousin's ex gf??!!

sis: i undstd where's mummy's coming from...she's very concerned, tt's all....i wld be too, you know? so are you? lesbian, i mean?

(msn)
bro: well girl.... you do look kinda dyke-y in the pictures....
me: thank you ah.. that wasnt my aim btw.
me: anyway gonna slp.. ciao!
bro: WAIT... AND WHO IS THAT GIRL U R KISSING????
me: haha aiyah we were high and it was just a dare and a picture..
bro: no u r not answering me.. who is she??
me: dont worry, im not gay... yet! HAHA. kidding. gonna sleeeeep now! nites!
bro: gd night lil lesbo sis :)

hmmm.. quite different huh.

cannot be anymore vain hor?? more pictures that i got from the many cameras that were used... spot the awesome threesome in the group picture... honkytong-honky-kongy-tong.

hey my niece isnt fat okay, she just has a nice ass thats all. =D and thats the kids at the pool.. guess who's covering his face? haha. and yes thats deon carrying kai.. i played pool with deon and i lost. yes, can you imagine? i lost to a 11 year old boy!! thats how bad i am at pool. also, deon's ball sense is amazing. hes damnnn good at pool.

ohhh. this is really outta point. but i finally sat on a bike the other day. ON THE ROAD!!!!! can you imagine???!!! (the veryyy first time i sat a bike was on stef's bike and we just went around the carpark opp centerpoint. so thats not considered!) and anyway...... OF ALL DAYS THAT I HAD TO SIT ON A BIKE.. guess which day was it?? its the day that i decide to wear a skirt to work! i mean how often does anyone see me in a skirt? NEVER. outta ten times that you see me.. i will be in pants or jeans... but no.. on that day i decide to wear a skirt... great!! anyway its damn fun! and quite scary!

i tried uzap from osim. i want to get it. i asked my sister already.. for my 19th present. hahaha. but im still deciding between a tiffany ring or the uzap..... grrrrr.

tasha's boyfriend is this boy called jonah ryan from her school. he's really cute and he said he wants to marry her because shes cute, smart, pretty and she makes him laugh. awwww. so sweet right! only problem, hes shorter. damn.

more friday night pictures... see the before and after outfit.. hahaha. one is so cheap i can buy twenty of the cheap ones to buy one of the more pricely one.

so i spent almost the whole of yesterday at home sleeping.
i slept at 7am.. woke up at 12pm.. watched tv.. and slept again at 7pm.. and woke up at 12am... and then slept at 4am.. supposed to wake up for church (DONT SAY WHATS NEW.) but i overslept and only woke up an hour ago at 12pm. greattt.

have you ever wished that your brain/mind is like a hard disk? like we can choose whatever we want to remember, and then delete the rest.. delete them and then clear the recycling bin? if only its that easy. im sure the world would be a better place. vVv. world peace.

anyway.. going to see my cute little boy deon in awhile! theres a bbq going on cos its my bro in law's birthday and deon is gonna be there! ho ho ho. he's only 11. HAHAHA. and hes like total cuteness.

my mom just asked me whether im gay.

i was showing her the pictures from last night. not all. only selected ones...

m: wah shes ten years older than you.. you all can go out party together ah?
d: you dunno your daughter 19 but 39 at heart meh? anyway mommy shes 8 years older...
m: you two lesbian is it?
d: are you crazy?? you think i will want to be with my cousin's ex gf??

haiyo. my mom thinks im gay. excitement.

anyway this is really random. but i just counted allll the pins that i took outta my hair yesterday. i had 77 pins on my hair! thats scary shit!

my favourite people at work.. both my shopping partners toooo! :)

rouge was so boring, we had to take pictures... and milton speaks reallllly good english for a hongkong person. not that hongkong people speak bad english... but usually u can hear the hongkong slang in their speech even when they speak english right? but his is this really nice accent.

thats charlyn! shes the one in the projectsuperhost! f5! check her out on the 22nd nov, channel u..

threesome threesome

post party! thats my favourite friend at work, jess! and the other 2 guys are from the hongkong office.. milton and kelvin.... i am so sure thats their names. cos kelvin is just easy to remember and he was distributing his name card. and milton is easy to cos thats my sisters ex boyfriends name and ive always thought milton is a nice name..

we all wanted to go to z0uk. around 12 we were all there but velvet (all these people old already, only can go velvet) was soooooo packed. the queue was so long. and there were about 15-20 of us? so we ended up at rouge for some drinks. rouge now quite wala eh?

and note, DO NOT PLAY FIVE TEN WITH HONGKONG PEOPLE!!!!! jess and i almost died. the hongkong people are sooo good at it i swear.

come leh take photo.. take photo...

we couldnt find a place to pump petrol.... and then we drove around bugis, ended up at lavender and found this place that feels very malaysiaaa. haha. and yes, thats my killer heels... and the silicon in it is supposed to make my feel feel better. they have silicon for everything nowadays huh... nose, bra.. blahblah. all just to make ourselves feel/look better....... so plastic hor. it is plastic wat.

okay dnd was a blast. actually it was like an awards night or sth. my company won manymany awards. woohoo!!

i had my hair up in 2 buns. (yes... laugh) and i almost died from walking in heels........................ hahahhaha. amd changing in the car is one hell of an experience....

so there was a post party at rouge, then z0uk....... fun fun fun! with all the regional staff and all. :) and after that i met praaaa.

and i snatched cabs from malay men........................

ok post pictures up tomorrow!!!!!!

this is really random.. but i was having this conversation with a friend today. it went along the lines of saying so and so is quite hot and blahblah.. until it went to the question.. "so course is she in now?".."biomedical science.." .. "oh sorry ah, wrong course."

is this how superficial we've turned out to be? that we actually judge someone by what course he/she is taking. that we actually judge someone by what he/she wears.. blahblah. are we really selective beings?

hard fact to accept i guess.. but we're all superficial beings. and we're all very plastic. and very materialistic. and very judgemental. and sometimes quite selective.

and im sorry, im not only talking about myself. yes, im talking to you.

so am i saying that we choose who we want to know/befriend by what course they're in.. what industry they're working in.. what kinda clothes are they wearing.. the way the talk.. the things they talk about.. the whole outside thingy. and not the inside thingy. am i making sense?

so tell me, do you enjoy those 2 minute conversations?

i saw my friend earlier on at heeren. hmmm.. we hung out for about a month plus? but when i saw her, i kinda switched lanes while walking cos i was feeling grouchy and i really didnt want to have the whole excited hello conversation.................. and then after that, i thought to myself.. why cannot just continue walking in the same lane and dont be so selective. just because im grouchy about the camera doesnt give me a right to be unfriendly... right??

aiyah.. dunno lah.. up to you lor.

im so bitter. my sis was supposed to pass me her camera cos hers is way smaller and it will fit into my clutch bag. but no... she totally forgot that its kyra's graduation (where got such thing i ask you?? pre nursery also got grad.. phonics class also got grad.. speed maths class also got grad... everything also graduated already lah!!) anyway... so yes. so i have no camera to bring tomorrow and i cannot take pictures. WHY??? cos i have a bulky lousy camera.

see, its time to buy a new camera. grrrrrrrr.

i am officially broke.

not only did i buy a pair of new shoes for $139.. i also bought accessories. and i am SO not supposed to shop for accessories today. i brought my friend/collegue/bitchingpartner to shop for accessories for her dress. in the end.. not only did she buy her accessories for her dress, she also bought a whole lot of other stuff! and me too! i bought more earrings thats just gonna end up in my drawer. and also brooches! :) very nice.

i think im addicted. to buying shoes and accessories. its scary. i can buy a $10 necklace.. and then want to buy a $80 shoe to match the necklace.. i need to stop!!! now whenever i shop, i only buy basics. im serious. i am starting to buy timeless pieces.... HAHAHA..

i am so so so broke. :( so i will just spend the next one month at home, wearing my new clothes and accessories at home.. i think thats quite cool. dont you think so? ha!

on my way home just now, i was sooooooo pissed i wanted to take out my pair of 3 inch heels to HIT the guy behind me. oh sorry, its boy. he is only 16 or 17 i think since that 2 buggers were talking about what to do after their Os finish. like go chiOngZzZzZ and talk about what cig is nIcexxXx. *rolling my eyes.* okay.. so let me complain. YOU dont complain. YOU just read. if you dont like what you're reading.. thank you very much perhaps that was my only aim. so bye bye. anywayyyyyy. yes... as i was saying..

(THIS APPLIES NOT ONLY TO BUSES OK. IT HAPPENS IN THE MOVIE THEATRE TOO AND IT IS EQUALLY IRRITATING IF NOT WORST BECAUSE THERE YOU ARE, YOU PAY ALMOST 10 BUCKS TO HAVE SOMEONE KICKING YOUR SEAT??? SIAO IS IT??)

okay please tell me i am not the only paranoid one around that gets DAMNNN irritated when the person/boy/slut/whore/lady/man/blahblahblah sitting behind you CANNOT sit still. meaning..... he/she/it will fidget (backside got worm is it??!!) ... and when he/she/it does that....... he is kicking your seat. and you can feel it... RIGHT? and if its a once or twice thingy its TOTALLY OK. i mean i am gracious and kind and forgiving and.... (hahaha kidding!) ok so bottomline being, if its only once or twice its OK. but what if that BUGGER does it like NON STOP!! like as though the worms in his/her/its ass are having a race or sth?????!!!!!

what do you do???????

a) change seats.
b) BE NICE, keep quiet and just continue playing puzzlebobble on your mobile and listen to the cranberries on your mp3.
c) turn around, say politely.. "sorry, can you please stop kicking?"
d) take our your new pair of 3 inch heels from the paperbag and just turn around and whack the bugger's head.
e) turn around, say "fuck you" and show him your middle finger.

since i wasnt feeling NICE today. neither was i feeling NASTY.... of cos i did option C lah!!!!! RIGHT OR NOT??? logic what... plus the fact that the bus was only at bukit timah and its another 15 minutes to my place. also it doesnt help that they are irritating buggers. once they got up bukit timah, they made this farting sound with their hands and mouth... and then said damnnn loudly.. "wahh who farted so loudly.. so smelly leh!!" i tell you GOT MEANING OR NOT????????? plus i was on the phone... so of cos irritating lah!!!!!!!! okay. out of context. so anyway... i turned around and said SUPER nicely... sorry can you please stop kicking. AND YOU KNOW WHAT THE BUGGER IN THAT UGLY RED NIKE SHIRT UNPLUCKED BROWS BOWL HAIRCUT SAID TO ME????? "i got kick meh???? you where got see?" !@#$%^*()()%!$#^%!&%$!&%^$! i ask you..... WANT TO TAKE OUT MY HEELS AND HIT HIS HEAD OR NOT?? so after that BUGGER said that.. i soooooooo wanted to just point my middle finger at him. but for the sake of the young children (if there are any) i decided to be nice. and just ROLL MY EYES.. did this loud TSK and turn around. and you know what???? the bugger continues.............. and now when they do it, they say things like... "excuse me is this kicking? can feel is it? can see is it?? *continues kicking* i never kick leh i think its ghost." I ASK YOU... WANT TO TAKE OUT BOTH SIDES OF MY NEW SHOE AND HIT BOTH HEADS THIS TIME OR NOT???????

but since i am a nice kind caring loving girl of only 19................ i decided to just keep quiet and blast my shanghaidivas and roll my eyes. THANK GOD they went down at cashew road. they were so noisy all you can hear is their voices. PLEASE LEH VOICE NEVER EVEN BREAK YET DONT TALK SO MUCH LAH!!!!!!

anyway.... end of story. finish already lor! like that only.

i think the moral is, next time if you feel like taking a cab home... just take lah!!! take bus then got bugger kicking your seat.. for what i ask you??

i hate black tie events. so far, just today alone.. ive spent a total of $350 on only a pair of black pants and a jacket. bloodyhell. and now i am so freaking broke..

and ive got my shoes to get. one lovely pair at jwest is $135. another pair at ninewest is $145. and another one at topshop is $159. and they're all veryy nice. aghhh. tried looking around for cheaper alternatives but dont have!! dammit.

i am going to be so so so broke. :( :( but i keep trying to tell myself these are like basic stuff for formal events. like the pair of shoes can probably match everything (yeah right!) and the pants are just normal nice looking formal pants.. and the jacket... growls! very very seasonal and after this season.. very out lor!! cannot wear already. ta ma de.

see, if i just bought the stupid gown from danielyam.. it would cost me only $145. and thats like an entire outfit. (minus the shoes.) compared to the freaking pants and jacket. but no.. i have to be stubborn cos i hate wearing dresses. and i hate the thought of wearing a danielyam, thinking about the possibility that someone at that event probably has the same gown as me. and so what? i blew another $200 just cos i dont want to wear a ohsocommoneveryonehasone danielyam. i want to shoot myself!

my brother actually bought my sister a pair of prada pumps but none of us can wear it cos it isnt our size. WHY KOR!! WHY!!!!! if you bought it just a size larger, the pair of pumps will totally suit my outfit and i dont need to think about shoes. and no, all the shoes i have at home.. 90% of them are flats. the rest are wedges. so a total no-no.

i bought my pants from heeren and ended up buying another top cos the salesperson was soooo nice. she even gave me a 15% off even though theres no sale or blahblah. and i ended up buying an umbrella from mango too. cos the stupid jacket is $199. i didnt bring my mango card out. and to apply for another card and get 5% off.. i need to spend at least $200. and there was NOTHING to get at mango. no nice clothes AT ALL. oh yah unless you count this stupid grey top thats like $80.. so i ended up buying an umbrella. how stupid.

i am going to be a broke girl from now, 15th november....... till 15th december. i am going to stay at home every weekend and just spend time with my new clothes. and umbrella.

ohhh i finally went to trim my hair today. after like 5 months. i hate my hair now. not the cut.. just the whole perm thingy. the perm totally dont match my hair color at all. now i look like some ah huey with like wannabe permed blond hair.. PERFECT!! and to top it all up, i bought a product by bedhead for my hair. surprise surprise, its called EGO BOOST! hahahahha.

ohhhhh. its the 16th november now. happy birthday st margs. its founders day or sth right? are you like 361 years old already or what??? oh sorry, 163... am i right?

and its my sister's wedding anni! hahahaha. 7 years ago i wore a black guess dress and plaited my hair.....

i FINALLY found the "nicest" blazer at mango. but it is a whooping $199. no choice. i cannot find anything else and i realllly dont wanna wear a dress.

do you know how hard it is to find the "just right" black pants in singapore? i went to so many shops today. they were either of the wrong material, too short, belt straps very ugly, got side pockets spoil the look, got some ugly button.. blahblahblah. its all just wrong. something is just wrong with all the black pants that i saw today. actually i only saw like 3 pairs that had the RIGHT material. but that three pairs all got something wrong with it. grrrowls!

i cannot walk in heels to save my life. i am serious. i tried on this pair of four inch pointed heels at aldo. i almost died. firstly, it is so freaking high i got scared. secondly, i cannot walk in heels to save my life. maybe cos its freaking pencil thin. i swear i think i am so fat the heels might snap! its scary!!

and you know what? thats like the nicest pair of black heels i saw in ages. and it will totally match with my blazer. but i cannot walk in heels!!! i tried another pair of 3 inch heels.. hoping that it will be better. but.. NO!! i walk like a duck/chicken/cuckoo blahblah. :(((( so far im able to walk in wedges. but why heels cannot!!! growls!!!!! i am so upset. firstly i cannot find a nice pair of black pants. just black pants only lor!! very hard meh!!!!! and then i realised today that i cannot walk in heels.

win already lor!! (dont we just love singlish.. lor.. lah..)

anywayyy. God is really amazing. so i mentioned previously that tash didnt get into chijbukittimah primary cos we had to ballot and we didnt get it? well she was on the waiting list (yes, we were the first in the list.. my sister kiasu can..) and......... we were just informed today that some child just backed out and so....... TASH IS GONNA BE AN IJ GIRL!! TASH IS GOING TO BE IN A GIRLS SCHOOL!!! (actually i also dont know whether thats something to be happy about......) amen!! i turned to shannon just now and said.. "oh no, tash is gonna be one of those ij girls with their belts below their butt.. HOW!!"

okay....... i really dont want friday to come. i have nothing to wear. only a black lovely blazer!! :(

you know how people have this like gaydar thingy? where you look at someone you kinda know whether he or she is gay or not? i swear i have this bike-dar thingy. the people that i think are/was cute... usually rides a bike. and its not like a oh-i-see-you-with-a-helmut-i-think-you're-cute kinda thingy. but more like a oh i think you're cute and the next time i see you or sth, you're holding a damn helmut! either that or you used to ride a bike.. haha. my bike-dar is so cool. and my gaydar sucks.

and thats like the most perfect pair of shoes ive ever seen.. and i REALLLLLLLY realllly want it but it is freaking expensive to pay $249 for it.. i must not buy it. i cannot buy it. ahhh but its so pretty!!

check out the giant fish at lei garden in chijmes.. it is soooo freaking huge and it looks like a monster!! and the tank is too small for the fish, the poor ugly thing cannot even swim around. its just like stuck there.

i can hardly take a proper picture with kai..

hello tash.. you're so emo its scary!

oh, thats my brother and his not-too-little-anymore sister. or so he says..... that was taken at spins before his haircut.. and before i permed my hair.. and my hair looks damn bad there anyway. and its so long!! hahahaa. shameless.

yah uve prolly seen these pictures already. but they're taken from a different camera so got difference ok............. haha. i miss my brother! :) and i love my family.. haha.. very cheesy.. cos i feel like eating cheese cake.. and i ate cheese sausages... (fine.. i will shut up.)

pictures from my bro's camera when he was in singapore. the picture with the 4 of us is sooooo bad. but kai looks SOOOOOO cute there!!!

i woke up at 8am for tash's grad and i am still awake!

anyway the graduation thingy was soooo cute. some teacher at the backstage went to apply red lipstick for tash... we only applied lipgloss for her lor. if we wanted her to have lipstick we would apply it can.. ok cannot be too bitter. kindergarten only.. i still cannot accept the fact that tash is going to be in primary one next year!! anyway she did this indian dance thingy.. damn cute.

so went for lunch with the family. tash said something very cute. "aunty daph, remember the last time we came here and then we sat there? uncle dan was here.." awwww. went shopping with my mom and aunt after that.. heh. tried to look for my blacktieevent outfit but cannot find!! dammit i am just too fat lah..

anyway i bought a skirt. HAHAHA.. but as usual i doubt i will wear it. i just like buying skirts when im out with my mom. haha. ohh and i saw the most perfect pair of shoes at paragon. freaking $249!!!!!! growls. and its just a pair of maryjanes.. so tempting can.. but no no no. i have to stop spending $$ on shoes. and also the cutest red top..... ahhhhh.

everyone, go to z0ukout!! haha. we got the earlybird tickets already. and a room at rasa... woohoo!! and even the alcohol list for the hotel..... woot woot. j0hndigweed was gooooodstuff tonight. but it was soooooo bloody packed we stayed for like only half an hour.

i need an outfit.
i need a blacktieevent outfit...

save me!!!!!!!!!

i am so so so dead.

the stupid ritz event is in like 7 days. AND IVE GOT NOTHING TO WEAR!!!!!!!!! i saw like perhaps the most perfect purple velvet blazer (it isnt as ugly as it sounds ok) at zara.. but guess what? i am too tall for S.. and too short for L... GREAT! and you know what? no more M.. no M in taka, no M in liat, no M in greatworld.. everyone say YAY!!

i know that going to blum will probably cure me. but the people at blum are really pushy. and i know that i will end up spending more than i should there.. so i am NOT going to go near UOB plaza this week. i am officially banned from blum till..... i dont know when.

anyway i have morphed into one of those deprived girls who actually shop during their lunch hour. yes its amazing how much you can do in an hour. i also spend my hours at work reading 8days/cleo/female/herworld blahblah.. guardian is like my best friend. i go downstairs, i see new magazines.. i get them.. and then now ive got an entire stack of mags at work cos im too lazy to bring them home.

guess what did we do on a friday night? we sat at starbucks playing sudoku!!! hahaha. actually i spend hours at work playing sudoku too. its damn addictive.. i get veryyy grumpy if i cannot slove a puzzle..

okay im gonna wake up at 8am on a saturday! yipee!

so i went gown-shopping with jess just now in town. ahhhhhhhh. i hatehatehate wearing dresses. i dont know why. yuck.. so anyway thats a cute dress that i tried on a daniel yam (yah, yawn.. the world gets their gowns from that place.) but i STILL want to wear a suit.. shall spend this weekend shopping for suits... and nice shoes! YAY!!

ohh i had such a lovely surprise today. the same surprise i had on saturday and monday. :) :) :) like idiot sia..

anyway, check out the pink razr.... its coming to singapore in december....... and hint hint hint. my birthday is on new years eve... do you wanna be nice and gettit for me? or ask my sis or mom or bro to get it for me??? please!! its so cute!!

im FINALLY trimming my hair next week. yayyy!!

they say that if your ring finger is longer than you're index finger, it means that you're totally gay.

so are you gay?

anyone has the dvds (or computer file, blahblah whatever) for sex and the city season six? I BEG YOU PLEASE LEND IT TO ME!!!!!!!!!! the ones that i have with me are down... the quality sucks and i can hardly watch like 15 minutes of each episode and jerry is so bloody cute in there........

so ive gone back to watching the L word.. :) ahh shane is still soooo hot. damn. i still think she reminds me of someone i know.. someone i saw recently... hmmmmm..

anyway.. i have 3 invites which will admit 6 for z0uk on friday night. free entry for 2 before 1130. not going cos tash's grad is on saturday morning at 9am!!! so text me if you want them..

okay, getting back to shane. hehehehe.

great, i have this company event to attend at ritz next friday....... some stupid awards night thingy. and guess what? its a black tie event. yay.. and i have nothing to wear. grrrr.

and i tried wearing my sister's dress just now at her place. too small.... DAMMIT!!!! and shes like a mother of two. i was so upset can. actually i already knew that i wouldnt be able to fit into her dress. but she insisted that i try it on.. and then she suggested that i go on a crash diet just to wear that dress.. crazy ah!

i was thinking, its a good time to buy a niceee suit from zara right? their suits are gorgeous. but i dont want to look too dyke-ish.

kai, why always so angry? and tash really isnt so fat.. you have to see her in person. haha. i love weekdays with the girls. we discuss tong xin yuan 2. we jam.. (yah right!) we (or rather the girls) play dress up.. we play hide and seek.. blind men.. yadayada. :)

yes, my chinese name... before ray applied the "perming solution".. and.... sigh bye bye straight hair. :( i am straight no more. ha ha. yes go ahead.. roll your eyes. anyway after 2 years of coloring my hair and now perming my hair. i am very happy to announce that my hair is officially damaged. big time.